What do you want to talk about?

Let's just cut to the chase. What is the fucking problem here? Just because I unfriended you on Facebook and you are now offended and hurt, is that it? I don't get why you're offended by this.

Feelings for me don't go away in a day. When I invest a substantial amount of feelings and emotions in someone, I can't switch off just like that. So while I accept that things didn't work out for us, it is painful for me to see you gallivanting around town with someone else. You do what you need to do and so must I. If unfriending you means I can sleep better, eat better and feel less crappier, then I think I owe it to myself to just do it. So don't you dare go all upset on me because you really don't have a fucking clue.

Whether you mean it or not, the damage is done. You can say sorry a million times and I sure have heard enough of it. But it doesn't make me feel any better. It doesn't make me sleep at night. It doesn't give me my appetite back. So I'm just doing what I need to do.

This is painful. Standing here talking to you hurts. So I'm walking away now.

The highs and lows of 2011

So much had happened in year 2011. Especially in the last 6 months of it. It felt like two years have passed in the last 6 months because I went to so many places and did so many random things.

January

- Returned to KL for Chinese New Year

- Visited family and friends in Singapore

Feb

- Work was getting really busy with new grads on allocation

March

- 'Broke up' for the second time

- Made the big decision to move

April

- Visited friends in Melbourne

- Road trip to Narooma with girlfriends during Easter break

- Handed in my official resignation letter

- Saw Bruno Mars live at Luna Park

- Saw Show Luo live at Acer Arena

May

- Quit my job of 3 years.

- Packed up my house of 4 years.

- Waved goodbye to my dear friends and left Sydney.

June

- Welcomed a new addition to our family....my beloved nephew, Isaac Lee

- Had a job interview and was offered the position.

July

- Semi-attended Bersih rally with my brother and cousins

- Holiday in Bali with Charlene and Aurore

- Holiday in USA with Angie (this deserves another post on its own)

- Got sooo drunk and puked on the side of the road for the first time in my life

- Nearly fell for a married man

August

- Visited Silvia in HK

- Saw Eason Chan live in Duo Concert in KL for the second time

- Got a job in Sydney

- Returned to Sydney

September

- Zheng and Dave's wedding

- Ker Pei and Nick's wedding

- Celebrated my 28th birthday in style

- Eventually accepted the job offer in KL

October

- Peter and Edlyn's wedding

- Sold my car

- Did pole dancing for the first time ever!

November

- Sylvia and Godard's wedding

- My graduation for Master of Health Science Education

- Family visited me in Sydney

- Family roadtrip to Tasmania

December

- Moved back to KL

- Started a new job

- Celebrated New Year's Eve with most of my close girlfriends for the first time in many years

The year 2012 is expected to be very different, very challenging, very interesting, maybe a bit overwhelming and frustrating but no doubt will be full of surprises. I am determined to give everything a red hot go, do my very best in everything I have committed myself to, be it my family and personal relationships, professional commitments, career or personal goals.

I am taking things as they come into my life. I am not worried about the past or the future, but am just trying to enjoy the present.